←A Twist Of My Story→
three years ago back when i was still in high school,back then I was 15 years old young and innocent(like hell I'm innocent XD),I have a friend a special one my best friend..her name is Becky in short,we known each other since in primary school and became close friend when we were in high school.I could say life could be a lot easier and tough sometimes,we fought,love,hangout,cyber love..so many things back in the old days.
so there we are in 2009 working our hardest to get our butt of this test (PMR),we were both in the elite class..and then one day we got into this english parliamentary debate competition for english week,I rather admit I wasn't good at speaking as she is..we knew a lot of new people and some cute dudes that we don't even knew their existance :D
There are this one guy who caught my attention since the beginning,So I began my first step brave one i guess trying to talk to him making my first impression awfully himuliating moment for the mission of getting his phone number bad luck is that I get his friendster account(back then friendster is one of the bestest social network) instead of getting his phone number I was to shy,and having the hard time talking to him,Sad thing is that..at the end of the day my bestfriend got his phone number..my hope were shattered she doesn't know that I like him though so i just kept my mouth shut
that night becky called me,she was all hyper and happy of coz..what makes me cough out the blood of my throat is that he asked becky to become his special girlfriend.I feel glad that she finally had a bf but at the same i feel a huge jealousy and envy towards her for having everything that i want ever since primary school it was unfair for me,for her to have everything while I don't.
everything just went smoothly for her while I'm having the roughest time of my life seeing them both together hurts me deep inside.I wanted to tell him,but worries of rejection i just endure the feeling and kept it lock inside.playing the role of a bestfriend for becky and to him(Kevin).becky was not really good in handling her relationship with him whenever they fought i would go and help them peace them down.As bestfriend i do it with a sincere heart enduring the pain on my chest.
One day..I got a text message from an unknown number,I was hardly curious so..i text the number,what a good thing is that it was him! I was so high above heaven:D it actually makes me smile all day long..I kept his text message saved in my phone never deleted it..I was so anxious everyday waiting for his text or even call..because with just being able to connect with it just makes me feel happy enough to just die in my sleep..not telling him how i feel being close to him is enough for me :)
He admitted!!O.O..To me that he loves me too!! :O..now I'm feeling guilty towards my bestfriend because he broke up with her,becky was texting me at the same telling me that he would hate the girl that tooks him away from her..I was so worried of losing my friendship at the same time my love,it was all a blur that day..He ask me if i could be his gf..but when I finally about to say yes..a text message came in 'I'm sorry,I'm back with becky now'..Only hell that i feel in that moment like my chest is been cut out to pieces..I stopped texting them for one whole day..that night i receive a text from them asking me to join them for lunch at KFC..and yeah i didnt reply because I was really mad and hate them at the same time
Weeks past,I'm getting sicker everyday,thinner,paler like I'm up to somekind of drug,I didn't talk much neither to becky nor kevin.I was in my own world hallucinating about the past weeks..on that day Kevin text me again telling me everything was becky's plan..about him confess his love for me and breaking up with becky was a false an act.Now my heart is strike twice with a sharp arrow.I thought everything was a fake,not until he told me about the confession it was true,he never get to confess to me because he was with becky.So we kept our feeling towards ourself,holding the secret of us both from becky knowing that it might hurt her if we tell the truth..
So you can tell that we are secretly dating.I knew since the beginning that this is wrong..I need to tell her the truth but somethings pulling me back telling me not to.we kept it a secret for months..well secrets don't last long when becky find out about us,I was out of school having my holiday..and when i came back everything occured to be pointing on me all the happening the lies,cheat pointing on me..everyone was avoiding me,rumors spread fast..people talks bad about me and him how poor becky for being the victim..I was temporary broke down in that moment..I lost some of my friend in the process,.even my friend from another school knows about the rumour conflict all i could do is shut my mouth back then and say nothing because telling truth wasn't going to make it any better..
everything comes into this one moment where the three of us meet in a class discuss about all this things,back then I couldn't do nothing but cry..when becky keep asking me 'why?' why i do that to her..Kevin was standing along beside just watch me cry all the tears..then I notice him standing and pointing at becky saying something to her and just left without a word to me,becky then pack her bag and left the school..while i was left alone in the class crying myself out..When I finally manage to stand up i pack my bag and walk outside the class taking step towards the washroom,and there i see him~sitting alone behind the wall staring at the floor..then looked at me :'(..I can't say nothing but cry..he hugs me~ saying 'I'll never going to leave you,I'll be here with you'..that was the last day of school..and the last time I call out her name 'becky'..now she's my Xbestfriend..we never spoke to each other ever since..
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| my new bestfriend :) |
years gone~and everything just back into normal i got my friends back,and even had a new friend bestfriend there i placed some of their pic with me :D
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My boyfriend and I <3
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So we've together for three years now,It's a tough road for me so far..this three years,I'm saying its hard because I'm trying hard to make our relationship stay for this long..I just hope we both could love each other for eternity :D <---JIWANG KARAT ..yeah~anyway thats all for tonight ,sorry for not being able to display a picture of me with becky,because I don't have the pic of us both anymore(deleted)
What past is the past,What important is now for us to cherished,and Tomorrow is our future <3 LoveMyHubby.com
XoXoXo..
sorry for the bad grammar! and long post.must be pretty tired reading right..??
anyway everything above is copyright by me!! everything above are true..not a fake >.<''
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